5 chocolate candies later...

well here I am, i looked 11 days since last posting...throat feeling a little icky again...what is going on this winter season? seems after many years of fairly normal cold seasons, this has been the worst in terms of returning colds and symptoms. I am on my first antibiotic pack this winter season, yet seems like the cold never really went away, it always keeps the foot in the door upon departure to kick it wide open week and a half later....weird things and I'm drinking my vitamin C religiously so what the heck....

work was hectic today not in a sense of too many different errands more like one intense, which i finished by 6.00p.m...
tomorrow morning i have to attack another one which is due by wednesday 5.00p.m. cutting very close to my reunion with really "old" friends:) which will be at 6.00p.m .in Bethesda.
Sometimes it seems the age doesn't matter - friends are friends. My dear co-worker from 2 jobs ago returned for a visit from czech republic and I'm definitelly heading out to drink a toast to him and his czech experiance. There are people that are just plain fun to be around and Joe is one of such people, a tall 60 year old giant:) with huge wide smile....he could swing you over the tree top with his powerful golf stroke, yet he talks to you like your opinion matters:)..sometimes it is funny for me when I know I still have to learn and learn and learn...and I'm grateful to be allowed to participate in the "old/ wiseones" talk.

Oh I'm selling my golden bicycle. I've finally concluded that it is a bit too big for me...I never felt quite comfortable stopping on it, without having to jump off of it and that is no fun. So I hope I can find it a good new owner, plus I think I'll be doing more tennis and sun-tanning this coming summer then bicycling:)...since now I'm close to tennis courts and a pool...(imaginary plunge in the shallow end of the pool):):):) afraid of the deep dark waters:).....

Things that still hold true this winter season:):
1. no steady relationship:)...he he he...but going steady for divorce
2. still have a sweet tooth (broke down and had a whole bunch of Latvian chocolate candy....so much for south beach diet:)...puh
3. bills....still scary... but maybe being fiscally challenged is my nature?
4. still love music...someone please burn me a Jay-Z..."Kingdom Come"....pls....
5. semi addict to sudoku game....getting consistently better...
6. liking my teacher in school....Panama has pretty and smart women:)...
7. realizing that I'm blessed in so many ways....friends, health (besides little hick-ups like cold)...money, job, life in general...
8. still don't know how to handle sharp objects....which accounts for my new deep cut in my thumb...ouch:)
9. still a night owl....can't make it to bed before 1.00a.m. like never...
10. can't wait to have a good dance party:)....iiihaaa...

posting a thought for it not to get lost...

...affection is a two way street. one minute you might feel rejected or accepted, but you should realize that you have the power to accept or reject anyone you want as well. don't think all the power, decision making is in the hand of other people...

...to lower my standards

...and what are they anyways. (i guess i only right in this thing during the two weeks right after my period:) when the tectonic hormone shift is happening in my body and i get extra sensitive and sappy to the whole world for no reason. and then the 2 weeks before next period the hormones shift again and the whole world is the happiest place to be in again....so anyways)...

...talking about the compatibility and relationships with people...i mentioned a well know fact to couple co-workers that it seems that people you would never imagine to be attracted to are attracted to you and are insisting on your attention, yet the people you really want to be involved with pay no attention whatsoever...and i just realized that for unreachable people i'm probably in the same category as where i'm putting people that i don't want the attention from....

...my co-worker said "why don't you lower your standards"? what should my response be?:)
...if i lower my "standards" then that makes me unhappy!... but do i really have such high standards?...is it called a standard? ...i know i've been shaped by my culture and upbringing and influences in my life to be attracted to certain type of face, certain type of attitude, certain type of character and behavior....and for now i can't seem to break that...that's what i like and that's what i'm attracted to...
...is the opposite way - to meet a person and have a conversation and not like them and keep trying to like them? no right?...are all of us wishing for too much when we want to have an easy conversation and finishing each other's sentences and thinking alike? is that called having too high of a standard for the opposite sex?