....walking my footsteps again....

...what about life....life goes on as it has always gone....
somedays I choose to wake up and wonder how incredibly rich and "potent" life is
all these emotions that it throws at us
without the regard if we're ready for them or not
without regard if we can tolerate the pressure
without the regard if we can handle the happiness
sometimes without the regard for anything at all
but then again life isn't a person
it doesn't have to have a regard for anything
life, time and universe are one and the same
and somewhere in the middle are little we
with an even more little me

i've had it so rich lately
so up and down lately
so thinking and trying to mend
so afraid to loose
so not ready to understand what i'm facing
so feeling at the same time that that is what i want
so not being able to understand what the other person is feeling like
so not being able to interpret what am i to do in a situation
so appreciative of the richness of emotions that the life is giving me
so not completely maybe being able to save what's saveable
so not understanding where i am going wrong
so not understanding what is wrong to begin with
listening to peoples advice
loosing myself in all their advice
trying to hear my own faint voice in the loud noises around me

but it is what it is
i don't really know what it is
but for now i feel i want to rest
i put all of myself out there
or maybe i didn't maybe i wasn't pushed to the limit
but i think i did the best
heart digging that i could find in myself
i came up with the answers
i voiced myself
i heard myself
i don't know if anyone else heard me
and now i want to dwell on it
let it sit
look at it
let it be forgotten for awhile
until i'm ready or willing to do anything about it
again!

here's a nice song that has an even more beautiful mellody
if you get a chance, listen to it, words are nice, but the music is even nicer:


By Foo Fighters

"On The Mend"

One more day that i've survived
Another night alone
Pay no mind I'm doing fine
I'm breathing on my own
I'm here
And I'm on the mend
I'm here
And I'm on the mend my friend

Wake me when the hour arrives
Wake me with my name
See you somewhere down the line
We're teathered once again

I'm here
And I'm on the mend
I'm here
And I'm on the mend my friend
I'm here
And I'm on the mend
I'm here
And I'm on the mend my friend

Was it you?
Sat alone
Here we go
Close your eyes and stay a while
To take me where you go
Single file we walk the mile
Who's wandering back home

I'm here
And I'm on the mend
I'm here
And I'm on the mend my friend
I'm here
And I'm on the mend
I'm here
And I'm on the mend my friend

Was it you?
Sat alone
Here we go
Here we go
Here we go
Here we go

[Thanks to gallenkamp@bytethinker.de for correcting these lyrics][ www.azlyrics.com ]

so it's been a long time!

It hasn't been quite a year, but it's been a long time. Lot's of things have happened and I went on vacation again. And I'm guilty of haven't posted any pictures here or on the Flickr, but I will slowly correct myself.
In short:
I'm in my third semester in School, Marymount University, to get my Master's of Interior Design Degree. I only have 1-1/2 years left...(he he a long and a short time),
I will have been at my present work for 2 years on October 3rd, it will have been the longest job I've held in any one place so far (tells you volumes of my work history:))
I've gotten Rosetta Stone to learn Italian and so far in 3 months I have successfully looked at Lesson #1:) it was amazing ha ha ha...I'm such a slacker.
I went on vacation with a very good friend of mine, to visit my mom in Latvia, visit friends in Norway, Oslo, visit friends in Prague and visit my dad and a great friend in Bulgaria. It was a great vacation. One I would take again without hesitation.
I have a friend (I think I can count him as a boyfriend now) since we kind of talked about it. But he's a very sweet guy, but we have a lot of things to learn about together. I like him A LOT.
What else:) I'm exploring new music venues. I have good people in my life who are willing to share their music with me and keep my musical life interesting.

Here are the words from the group I found yesterday and so far I like them a whole lot. I'm on my third round of listening to their CD this morning. This song felt expecially good to listen to, here are the words:

By Thirteen Senses

Call Someone-

Call someone
Tell them how you feel
Call someone and tell them what you think is wrong
Beat the ground
Show it how you feel
Show it all the ways that you've been taught to feel

And the bigger you are
The harder you fall
You just need to call and let someone know
And the faster you think
Is the time that you'll need just to say hello

Waste some time
Trying not to breath
Trying to be heard in all of everything
Change of hearts
Change it how you feel
Call someone and let them know how good you feel

And the bigger you are
The harder you fall
You just need to call and let someone know
And the faster you think
Is the time that you'll need just to say hello

And nothing ever happens
And nothing ever fits
But your keeping up with it
Gonna take one more connection
One that you fit and make use of it

And the bigger you are
The harder you fall
You just need to call and let someone know
And the faster you think
About doing it is the time that you'll need