what am I doing

still at work...what am I doing? Playing around the net and checking out the "Idols" backgrounds for the past 10 min. I really should be going home and not waistin gmy time...but somehow it is peacefull her at work with noone around and I get to do what I want.

I was thinking about friends today....how few I have of them and how fast I attach to good friends and how painful it is to let them go even for a short time. And I'm surprised that even some people in my life who I can't call quite friends I got attached to so surprisingly fast that I'm making a fool out of myself sending them too many emails and not getting any answers.
There must be some chemical in the human body that is responsible for all this attachment. Missing friend on emmotial level and really feeling the void and then missing people on physical level and feeling again the void. Too many voids I think are not good for one person in short period of time...or it can create a black hole:) in them......like me...

What else....it s so foolish the world is full of people yet is it so hard to find the right ones to feel good with, don't you think? There are different personalities, different vibes, different interests and the ones that match with you are rare...the ones you can laugh with from a glance or the ones you don't have to hold your breath with for awckward moments or not appearing thoughts.

And yet on another note I'm looking forward to the weekend company picnic....even though I'm getting no physical activity:) if you know what I mean I will be among the people who make me laugh and among woods and grass and get to experiance the nurture of nature again:)