too busy again

...aaaaahhhh for a second day straigh I have to stay late at work. I don't want to believe that it is all because of the holiday Monday off but it is pointing to that and our crazy client.
Got home only at 12.00midnight last night....I wouldnt mind coming home that late from a party but from work is no fun.
...trying my best to wrap up this stuff so that I can get outta here in the next hour and see the " Sex and the City" episode that I missed last night:)

hm...and my email was kind a slow today....almost noone sent anything new and interesting. Guess everyone is pretty busy and in their own lives doing things. Missing a friend who is having fun in Europe and wishing some people around town would make a call....but I decided to be patient and not put myself out there like I foolishly did last week. I guess people don't handle raw emotions well... they want it all boxed in and given to them bit by bit....not like me just telling my mind and wishes and getting pushed back.

God....another time I so clearly see the meaning of the phrase "Be careful what u wish for"...because I made a wish to be able to experiance the hurt and pain and pleasure of a normal relationship not like the one I've been in for the past 7 years (emotionless)...
...and here I am....waiting and longing and hoping and.....
the emotions that I was so affraid to face when I was 17...hopping on the adult bus too fast....

...but this time I am ready. I will take it all (no skipping this time)...bad or good and hope that all the feeling and emotions only enrich one's life for better.